GONE

The key to success is to dream.

but how big you dare to dream?

Dream drives us to move forward.

It motivate us to work our best to achieve it.

BUT

what if it suddenly vanish just infront of you.

its so near yet so far.

Everytime when I almost reach the finishing point,

I tripped and fall.

I am so fed up of it.

More and more problems coming in.

Yet

No one understand me.

I am not really what you think of.

No one ever try to put their leg into my shoe.

They never understand why I work so hard.

I dont wanna be a puppet to the society.

Pleasing everyone first but not my self.

I wan my own role in this show.

What should I do?

Just have to stop complaining,

Frederick Chan

My Thoughts

I am glade that where ever I am there is always some one there to help me out.

Since my schooling day, I still remember i was so dependent on some one.

She is like my personal assistant.

When I am in college now, there is also some one who eventually help me out in every aspects.

Now, in the working world, I meet another helpful friend who help me and guide me through everything.

I am lucky. Lucky to have you guys that are helping me.

I am really grateful to have you all in my life.

Without anyone of u, I wont be me today.

Yet I miss the one who i usually share my problem to.

I still cant find anyone who I feel comfortable to share with.

Sometimes things isnt easy around me.

Though it seem tat I have alot of helpful hands.

But hands aren't enough for me.

I need ears too.

Ears that are willingly to hear me

**Thanks to those who help me in my life. You guys are the best**

hopeless boy

Frederick Chan

Speaking From My Heart

For these 2 days I totaly enjoy myself under the

chilling breeze, calming waves orchestra

and

the soft sandy sand.

Without my hp and lappy around with me,

I started to reflect on my past.

I realised how naive i was,

I never accomplish any thing wit my heart and soul before

Yet I hope for high achievements

I never knew that when things are broken

no matter how you stick them back,

the crack still remains.

I thought that what ever I do

I will get an equal returns.

I have missed out alot of opportunities

I never appreciate how good everyone around me.

I never learn.

Now i have lost them.

I lost everything.

Trying to glu everything,

Frederick Chan

"Perfect"

We come across this word "PERFECT" everyday.

How do you define it?

Perfect is entirely without flaws, defect, or short comings.

Can you name out something which is perfect?

God created Earth.

With land, sea, mountains,

plants, animals and human.

Is indeed a perfect creation.

But humans created by God on earth is a flaw.

Why?

Human beings are being so selfish that they destroy

MOST

of the mother nature.

Put those aside.

We human being are born with pros and cons

Thats how God created us to balance things up.

We just have to accept our cons.

But why don we see it in another angle?

Must we compare each and everyone?

If u can accept some ones cons

WHY

not accepting others cons as well?

This question comes out as fallacy kicks in.

Most of us are blind folded by our feelings.

Eventually we are bias and selective beings.

We tend to shut off what ever we would not want to hear or see.

But try think for your self and put your leg in some one's shoe?

How do you feel if some one did the same thing to you?

Always look at what they can do and what they do best.

NOT EMPHASIZING ON WHAT THEY CANT DO AND WHAT THEY ARE BAD AT.

Yes, I believe some may against it.

The world is too realistic for this kind of perception.

But if you don start to accept others no one will accept you.

Give yourself a try.

Maybe it turn out better.

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Sorry if i offended anyone and I don't mean God din't do his job well. He did a great job and I am

grateful that I was his creation and thanks to him, I was brought to this world.

Imperfect,

Frederick Chan

Time Paradox

Have you realized each second eventually ticking away from us?

Do you even know that when u r reading this nonsense,

You have wasted 5 minutes of your time?

Look back and think for yourself.

What can u do for that 5 minute?

Lots of other beneficial stuff instead of reading this.

This applied to ur life.

Have you look back what have u done yesterday

or

Even years back?

Have you utilized your time fully?

Its good to do some reflection and learn from mistakes.

Have you think about why are you repeating the same mistakes?

Actually past is something worth learning.

They are as important as your text book for a particular subject.

and "Today" is your "Examination"

How well u score in your paper depends on how much have you learn from your past.

Some never get to pass them even trying tons of times.

"Future" is your "Result"

As what you did today will reflect on the day after today.

Remember that always learn from past and think before doing anything now

As

It affect your future.

Reflecting my past

Frederick Chan

Chrono Mart

Time never wait for us.

They creep, crawl, move even without us knowing.

It is an important assets to us.

Yet it never appreciate nor depreciate.

How many hours did we spend on smth useful?

I doubt it my self.

I have been chasing time for ages.

Running and running to keep up with time.

Yet its useless.

24 hours aday aint enough.

I wish there is a chrono mart for me

I need more time

to study

to work

to play

to sleep.

Looking at the brighter side it makes me stronger.

In every aspect.

Frederick Chan

Maybe It Doesn't Matter Anymore

During the darkest night,

You gave me your hand and pulled me out.

I was grateful.

Grateful that I do not have to live in my own pass anymore.

You shown me how bright the sun is.

How beautiful the rainbow is.

But

These moment wasn't long.

As winter come by,

Snow start falling,

Air around start turning chill,

The sun wasnt bright enough to warm me up.

I stay in a corner.

Rubbing my self, keeping myself warm

In the end I know that you aren't here anymore.

I don't know what should I do.

I am so numb.

I don have the courage anymore.

I am sorry I don't know what to do.

Confused,

Frederick Chan

Is There A Fair Game Exist?

Human nature is clouded by greed.

As a being, we are greatly possessed by them

There is nothing fair in this world as beings are still exist.

Fair is a word of unattainable

or

known as a word of measurement

Same goes to LOVE

there is no fair game in it.

Its wether u win it or lose it with some one getting hurt.

Different people have different approach.

As it is so subjective there is no absolute answer to it.

But

What they are trying to do is to provide some sense of security.

Maybe in a wrong way

but

they have no bad intention in it.

Its hard to not lay an eye on someone u love.

Yet

its harder to impress them in a good way.

Its all base on which angle u look at it.

Cheer up and think abit you might able to do the right thing

for yourself

(sorry if I happen to write smth out of u)

Unfair,

Frederick Chan

Stuck In The Icy Moment.

Summer, Spring, Autum and Winter

These 4 important seasons are just like our emotion

Happy, Sad, Bitter and Lonely

I duno why

I wish i know the reason bhind it

I am like being replaced.

Being kept in the refrigerator

It's very cold.

I am breathing in chill air.

The warmth that you once given me had gone

Weakly searching for fire woods

hopping to build a small fire to warm myself up

but

I am too weak.

Too weak to even bring myself up.

Freezing,

Frederick Chan

The Chase

Everyone tend to chase for something

Werther it is attainable or not.

It never stop.

I have been running around chasing stuff.

I wanted to be a perfect guy

I wanted to excel in everything i do

But

I fail to.

Its hard to please everyone around us

On the other hand,

Its hard to take rejection too.

I am tired.

Tired of all this running and chasing.

I want to rest.

Tired,

Frederick

Friendship VS Love

Friendship is what we treasure

Yet

Love is something we would die for.

So? which we would we prioritize them first?

Some say friendship over love.

Some say love over friendship.

Or both are equally important?

Love start from a friend.

Do that consider friendship should be prioritize?

Or

When you broke up.

Who is the one that will lend you their ears?

Indeed friendship might seem more important.

But

When you are upset, lonely who is the one who stay whole night on the phone with you?

The one you love.

Who will be there for you most of the time giving you the sense of security?

The one you love.

Who will be there beside your dieing bed until your last breath?

The one you love.

Without one of them we are no one.

We will never be successful at all.

Never try to compare those small little thing as life is make up from pieces of puzzle

Each piece is equally important.

Nothings gona change my love for you

If I had to live my life without you near me

The days would all be empty

The nights would seem so long

With you I see forever oh so clearly

I might have been in love before

But it never felt this strong

Our dreams are young and we both know

They'll take us where we want to go

Hold me now, touch me now

I don't want to live without you

Nothing's gonna change my love for you

You ought to know by now how much I love you

One thing you can be sure of

I'll never ask for more than your love

Nothing's gonna change my love for you

You ought to know by now how much I love you

The world may change my whole life through

But nothing's gonna change my love for you

If the road ahead is not so easy

Our love will lead a way for us

Just like a guiding star

I'll be there for you if you should need me

You don't have to change a thing

I love you just the way you are

So come with me and share the view

I'll help you see forever too

Hold me now, touch me now

I don't want to live without you

Nothing's gonna change my love for you

You ought to know by now how much I love you

One thing you can be sure of

I'll never ask for more than your love

Nothing's gonna change my love for you

You ought to know by now how much I love you

The world may change my whole life through

But nothing's gonna change my love for you

I have grown up

Not everyone will grow up

but everyone will age

growing up change ones mentality.

How much have I grown up?

How much have I changed?

I used to dip fries into mayo

yet now I don't

I used to be immuned to tea

but

now i am so vulnerable to tea.

I used to nap for hours

but

now I don't

I used to be addicted to games

but

now I am sick of them

I am more sensitive to people,

Care for people around me,

Not being cold hearted anymore

How much more have i change?

All I need now is......

You.

Living In My My Past

Living in ones own past is never a pleasant experience.

I just wanna say hi to u yet i have no courage to do so.

Are u asleep?

How are u?

Are u ok over there?

Questions that I could possibly utter out even without having a second thought.

Yet I am unable to do so.

I am worry...

Hoping that future isnt a replacement.

But smth i treasure.

River Flows in You by Yiruma.

I just hate ur songs.

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Splendid Event

After months of preparation and hard work from each and everyone in the organizing committee we successfully organized the !st KL Omega Leo Clubs' Joint Installation with the theme "Chrysalis of Change". This event was participated by 10 Omega Leo Clubs.Basically leos that attended will be inducted as a member or install as a BOD or key officers. Below is the organizing committee picture with lions.

The picture is not really clear lolz~~ During this JI there are some performance. KuZheng and also dance performance. Sorry to say i din really pay attention to them. Having my little chit chat corner on my own ;p.

Not to forget the food was nice~~ hehe ermmm then everyone was free to move and mingle around... O yeah before this event end they do hav lucky draw but sad din get one hahaha... Let pictures do the talking for me.

Leo Club of KL Perennial with our Lions

Justin, Lion Foo and Lion Ang

Kl Perennial members

All photos wit friends.

Thank you to photographer Steph Teoh and Shugan for all your wonderfull photos. Besides that congrat to all the new BODs and key officers who newly installed.

Frederick Chan, ^^V

I don have a choice

Stress, pressure, work, studies, feelings tumble all over me.

Hiding down below them hopping time will alleviate everything.

How long can I hide from the truth?

How much can I take it?

My naive thinking had brought me suffer.

Thought that keeping my self busy will end my suffer.

But I ended up digging my own grave.

I need some one.

Some one who will lend me her hand.

Lend me her ears.

Her shoulder to lessen my burden.

Those are what I dream of each and every night.

Hopping she will appear one day.

Hopping that reality isn't that cruel.

What should I do now?

I don't have a choice but to stand up and face them.

Memories

Half way fb right before sleeping i found this post by my frn ken lee who share this video has totally bring me back to around a year and half ago which there is a movie with this song in it and most importantly is who am I watching it with. I really don't know how to explain but I am totally stuck in that moment until the song ended. The tittle of the song is river flows in you by Yiruma. I will add it in my blog as background song soon.

Sad >.<

Random post of the day 14/08

Another typical day pass just like that. Went for the Yes Challenge 1 day seminar this morning. It was great as Brendan (i don't really know how to spell his name) and UV are superb speakers. They totally caught our attention unlike having lecture class. I said that because I tend to doze off in lecture class. Learn quite alot new stuff and understand how much we have to commit in this challenge. Its great to experience it ourself in this young age as we grew older some of us might not even have the opportunity to start up their own business yet I am worry I might not pass the first round. I am so tired~ mentally and physically exhausted now~. Photos will be updated as soon I receive them.

Some Random Post Of The Day

Ughhhh 2day I realise how dull my life is~~ woke up early in the morning yet I duno know what to do, nth to report... Even sick of gaming too~~ On FB yet nobody on9. After that went to collect some stuff and head to 1U. End up went swimming. Btw it had been some times since the last time i swam. My kepak ayam n paha ayam aching now >.<. So tired when i think of attending a talk tmr for 1 whole day. Time to rest my chicken wings and drumstick or else i cant drive tmr. Hope tmr will be the day that some one I am waiting for will appear infront of me but i do have some yet I don think those are not suitable. Pray hard!!

The Ending

I have stopped bloging for quite some times. Addiction to games had eaten up all my time so do my time for you. Maybe this is 1 of the reason. Or maybe is because of distance. Ending it maybe a solution for better and longer journey for both of us. Yet its not as easy as ending a book by putting the pen down. Neither one of us is happy of it. It had been a week yet i am not dry. I realise how you feel having my jacket with you. The feeling of secure and existence that will calm you down. I never tough that it will leave such a big impact on me. I will just have to move on and start another story with brand new chapters on my own.

The darkest time arise

Every starting of a story comes an ending. Neither it is a happy or sad. People do believe our life is like a story, start when we step into this world and end when we step out of this word. Ups and downs filled the lines of the pages in the book divided into chapters throughout our life. Love is juz a chapter in the book. Some may have it end earlier and some may have few chapters about it. Lucky ones never end that part. In a particular chapter in my book, climax arise where problems flood in with thunder storm roaring and land sliding. In the same time, the only hope where he can depend on broke down by earth quake. At that moment he had nothing to depend on. All on his own, blindly, without any helping hand to crawl out from the dark maze without any sense of direction. Time is needed to clear up everything. All he need is time.

Belated Christmas celebration with dar dar

Miss my dar dar after so many weeks without her.... Hmmm she went to fraser that why haha.... Then this morning we planned to go for jogging but we end up go back n watch movie lolz... Besides that, we exchange christmas present... Thank you dar dar for ur present haha it is wonderfull... I love the shape of it.... Hope you like what i bought for u too... Love you forever....

My Christmas present... A Love Cactus

First Day of College in 3rd Sem

It was shocking to see every changed their style... Bang Bang Bang i see Bangs every where i go lolz... It seem to be the style of the year for 2010.... The first days sucks... I cant drive to college due to my stiff neck... Sad that i cant even turn my neck... Besides that i was extremely tired due to lack of sleep... Time ticks slowly seconds by seconds and i did not enjoy them... Wats in my mind was "HEY DUDE JUZ STOP YACKING AND END THIS CLASS I WANT MY BEAUTY SLEEP!!" Went back at 2 and i sleep all the way in the car lolz.... And my day end like a sleeping handsome (beauty is d original word lolz)

Jan: Few more days b4 my college start

Enjoy these days till the max... Hmmm if i am not wrong it started off with swimming at The Club with Justin... Lolz d price is reasonable but the most important thing is i lov the swimming pool... Its HUGE... after that went for mamak for dinner (basically i almost hav mamak for dinner for a few days in that week) than went for a movie, bodyguard and assassin.... That movie is nice....

Then followed by 3 guys went shopping a few days after the swimming thinggy... Lolz it do feel weird but it was ok.... D 3 musketeers is Me, dylan n Justin.... We went to TS n SG wang... That Justin filrt all the way from the starting till the end... Wooooo Dylan got protected by a preety sales girl... lolz.... Unfortunately i did nth special lolz.... But i hav a almost 2 hours hair cut b4 i went TS n SG wang... lolz it was the longest hair cut i ever had..... But i am very satisfied with the hair cut... Hmmm the next thing after a few days of the shopping day was swimming again... LOLZ... Justin u have to work abit harder to learn how to swim properly.... FLOAT man FLOAT!!! hahaha.... Then it end with a Sherlock Holmes...

Back home around 3 and my college start that morning.... TIRED!!!

Tuning back to holiday!!!

Sem break was fantastic though i didn't went any where or any trip... Hmmmm start with d first day of my holiday... I was busy gaming all the while until i lost track of everything... Sad right?? than after a couple of week I stop gaming n got on with my life... Curve was wonderfull... I think they hav the best christmas deco among all other places... They have allocated a small area and make it into some sort of snowing area.... Kinda romantic in the soapy snow LOLX...

The romantic Street @ curve

Everyone seem to enjoy d soapy snow

SNOW!!!

Dar Dar n me.... In Curve

Back to my life... after that i went out almost each night till morning acc by Dylan... My life turn upside down bcoz of it... Then during christmas eve, I went to Dylan house for steamboat... That was a great meal... Thanks my mei for d wonderful steamboat soup lolz... Skip till new year now... I did went for count down around my housing area which is Desa Park City... There were lots of people around there with wonderfull firework... But i have an guilty new year due to some problem occur that day... I am sorry le mei... >.<... That all for my DEC sem break woooot.... Happy new year everyone...